Living with Pain.. There is always tomorrow...
In life, we are dealt cards, we may not like, but we live with them. I had to have Carpel Tunnel surgery on both hands, due to the work, I was doing.. After it was all done on my one hand, things got worse.. Pain increased.. Upon many tests, and so on, it was discovered I had CRPS (Complex Regional Pain Syndrome) and life, as I knew it was going to change dramatically.. I lost use of 3 fingers due to nerve damage on my left hand and ended up with very limited use of my left arm..
Loving to take photographs, almost came to a grinding halt, as I could only use one hand to hold camera. Having the Carpel tunnel in right hand, well, I have a brace on that hand, to add to the degree of disabilities.
The pain I feel, is like giving birth and you are in the last hour of labor pains, and i feel that in my hand, and arm, 24/7. I needed an outlet to cope, and started drawing on the computer, and focusing my mind on my work, and helped relieve some of the severe discomfort, I was having. Not use to taking anything, now my life is my daily heavy medications to help with the pain.. Now with many limitations, I have to rely on my mate for much of the daily things we do. He stands by me 100% and lets me live life as I can..
I still take pictures, but they are shaky, and so on... using a mono-pod or tripod, is cumbersome to say the least. I spend hours making illustrations, of things I like and hope that others will like them too.. When finished an illustration, I upload and await the verdict... no matter what is said, I did it, I liked it and know that for at least the time I was making it, my pain was not as severe.. in one sense, it is mind over matter, and with taking the thoughts and placing them into something constructive, it reduces the amount you are feeling, so for me.. no matter what... it is a Win..Win situation..
I am scheduled to have a Spinal Column Stimulator, implanted into me, early this summer, to help reduce some of the pain.. we hope!!
Coming into my 50th year this year (2009), I am blessed, with many abilities to cope with each day as it comes..
So, onto taking pictures and to drawing illustrations, I will do. Hoping for them to be used in some capacity.
If today is a bad day... There is always tomorrow..
Photo credits: Deeboldrick.